My adventures in English 101

Well let me start off by saying, this roller coaster ride was lots of fun. I must admit the first time I actually looked at the material I was blown away at the sheer volume of the reading and writing we had to do. Looking back on it I could have chose many instructors for this course, something kept gravitating me towards this class. I am glad that out of all the other classes I chose I chose this one. I felt that the learning experience was so cool. I have always loved Music, so when I saw that a lot of our writing came out of the Music and Culture Book I was thrilled. I know a lot of people didn’t quite like this they felt that it was boring and that they were being forced to do something that they didn’t want too, well in our literatures defense we could have been stuck writing about history or politics, that would have really been boring and I don’t feel we could have easily related to the material.

I’m not sure how many of you actually met with Mrs. Gross but I took the privilege many times. She is one of the best teachers I have yet to encounter, funny I went to Brigham Young,   and some of the best teachers I have met here at this community college. I found Mrs. Gross to be very informative and helpful. I went to her with all sorts of, buts, I don’t understands and oh my god help me with this monstrosity that I’m calling an essay. She was always really nice, but to the point and very helpful. She went out of her way to show me some trades in writing that otherwise I would have never learned.

I really liked the group projects, they I feel brought each and everyone of our thoughts together representing the class as a whole. It was great, not to mention the fact that Calvin and Hobbs broke the Ice for us on more than one occasion. Can’t fail to mention either that those two guys are some of the cutest guys I have ever seen in the cartoon world sort of Snoopy.

I felt that the PDRS could have been a lot more helpful had my peers took it a little more seriously. I t was difficult to produce good essay with out good feedback, For that I’d like to thank Jerusalem again for all her honesty. Literally she improved one of my papers by a letter grade way to go girl J  I would hope that if my peers were put in that situation again that they might be a little more critical.

I had a blast this semester good luck to all my fellow class mates. If you set your mind to it there is nothing that you can not accomplish, even when the chips seem to be low, if you don’t give up and you keep putting your best foot forward you will succeed. For all my classmates that still think they can’t write have faith in yourself, no ones asking you to do the best your neighbor can do, they only ask that you do the best you can do. Good Luck hope we all passed. Catch ya’ll around J Kel

Hey I enjoyed this class.

                              Writing this blog.

I have learned a lot of things this semester first of all I discovered that although I love to write I may not be ass good at it as I thought. That was something that sucked but it  also enlightened me.

I am thankful; this class has been really trying, but I survived. I may not have the best grade in the class but I survived. It sets the pace for even more challenging courses that are to come.

I really enjoyed reading anything that Jerusalem wrote. She has an exceptional talent. I also enjoyed reading Perry’s work. She has a technique to writing that just flows.

I’m not sure how many of you met with our teacher but, she is great. She is truly talented also.

I learned how to incorporate my thoughts and feelings into my essays as well as the other point of view. I learned many strategies as far as using different techniques  of writing.

I think that my writing has grown as far as format, with the help of my peers as well as our teacher I feel that the development of my writing as improved. I need to work most definitely on my MLA format. I know I screw it up every time. I feel that I might get nervous about although I can’t quite figure out why.

I like to write because I feel that it gives me, personally, a unique way to express myself. I am 30 years old white, and I have a lot of tattoo’s. Most people look at me and just assume that I am not intelligent or that I don not have common sense. When I write people Are forced to just look at my point of view. They are not influence by the way I look or chose to present myself. Mt audience has nothing to judge but my writing. There has been plenty of times were I totally blew someone’s mind, because they had no clue that someone like me could produce some of the things that I have.

For Example, believe it or not I am certified t be a legal secretary and have written many winning declarations. Legal writing however is much different than writing essays.

I enjoyed my time in this class and enjoyed writing blogs and blog responses.

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE. MAY ALL OF YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE.. Kellee J

THUG LIFE

                ITS A THUG LIFE

I had to pick this question for me there is no doubt in  my mind that 2-PAC is and was one of the best rappers of his time. Regretably he is no longer in our presence for us to be blessed with his lryics.

Bringing about this question why do rappers feud about who is the best?

Well in my eyes they are caught up in these "fake persona's" of a "gangsta or thug." Since these artist's usually have a life of their own that does not invole or pertain any aspect of their career, there is nothing else's for them to fued about. The only thing left is who is better.

For 2-PAC it went to far. The argument. Now he is dead all because one record label was mad about lryics that another artist used to describe them. You see they had a “persona” that they needed to keep up with, they were “gangters” you see. So they went out and di I guess what they thought “Gangsta” would do now the world is less to brillant rappers, 2-PAC and Biggie Smalls.

Another Artist that I want to give recognition is Eminem, as I have reconzed him before. He is great. I can not say that I like all of the things that comes out of this guys mouth however I can say that everything that comes out of his mouth is put together beautifully. Eminem’s ability to rap is far beyound any thing I have every heard before. I truly believe that for Marshall Matters to rap on a calibur as he does takes a great deal of education. His ability demonstrates how brillant he is. It takes true knowledge of the vocabulary to be able to manipulate it in such a way that he does. Think about it is almost as if he cruses you out and then you you say thank you.

Although as I mentioned in prvious paragraphs that I felt 2-PAC is one of the best rapers of his time, he is however if he were around today and rap was based soley on ability rather than image and “fake persona” he in my opinion would not hold a flame to Eminem. I’m sure this has made 2-PAC fans very angry just remember this is my opinion.

Another Artist that I feel is good is DA-BRAT. She really helped put women rapers on the map. She came outin the early 80’s with something to prove. She hit the charts and captured the audience with her rat a tat tat hit. She somewhat came across like a male Snoop Dog. She hasn’t been around recently only in Mariah Carey’s Gliter music video did she get a small window to perform. Woman rapers I feel have to work harder than the men because the image is harder for them to capture. It’s easier to take the simple apporch like Salt n Pepper or T.L.C. they were noted for their vocal ability and there sexy image but in both groups their was the rapper.  

OMG A RESEARCH PAPER?

Research Paper

Well let me start off by telling all of you guys that I am most definitely not your average student. I sign up for like 14 units every semester. At first everything is cool I mean it's the beginning not to bad. By the time Mid-terms roll around I start to feel the pressure that I so freely signed up for. At this point the sweat starts to roll down my forehead and my heart races.. I get my grades back and see that I have ACED them so I relax again. Oh no my big mistake. Couple more weeks roll by and I feel like everything is cool, then one morning at like 3 o’clock in the morning, it hits me.... OMG I have finals and term papers due. In normal circumstances this would be ok, I have already clarified however that I'm not your normal student, 14 units is a heavy load.

As far as this semester goes, boy lets see, Murder Book, Term Paper on Watergate, and oh The Beatles Research Paper. Not to mention many ass. and essay’s. This takes care of those classes then there is always Math.

I hate math…. I don’t understand where negative and positive numbers will come into the prosecution of a rapist.

This research paper has taken me for a ride. I had the hardest time just settling on a topic. When I finally did I couldn’t figure out what band to use.

I went to my mother’s to help her weed her garden and when I walked in I was overwhelmed with the lyrics I want to hold your hand… My mother had net flicked some kind of documentary on the Beatles. At first I was like hurry up mom lets go do this it is almost to hot to weed. We both got up and started to walk back to the back yard when I heard someone say John Lennon said The Beatles are more popular than Jesus. Wow I said. What the heck is he talking about. It caught my ear. I sat back down and started listening again. America was in an up roar the once most popular British Band was now looking at the beginning of a ban. Not your normal Ban Eighter.

It hit me this Band is perfect for my topic. It’s fits perfectly into the realm of a band getting banned.

Since that day I have read several books about this issue. I mean it was so bad that even the Pope spoke upon the issue twice.

Some of the issues that I am encountering are where to start. I feel like I have writers block. I have obtained so much information about this band and this comment that I have no clue where to start. My great teacher seems to give me the greatest feedback as well as a classmate Jerusalem, therefore I understand that I have huge problems in the developmental stage of my writing. So with all this information and the knowledge of the developmental problems and the thought of where do I start? Leads me right back to the last question asked. Where do I start.

Ok I can make a scratch outline. Need to refine it several times I am sure.

Need to go through information and chose what backs my Thesis and argument and what does not.

I guess I can start there. J  

Bad Girls

 THE BAD GIRLS CLUB

I have to pick the bad girls club. This T.V reality show is insane.

It displays woman who are living the high life, with no responsibilitys what so ever.

Every single day this immature ridiculously insane females get up and start in on their primisious behaviors, sleeping with each other and random men on the spur of the moment. Not to mention the sheer volume of liquor these females consume on a daily bases. It's only a miracle that these ladies have not been killed by alcohol pousioning. Oh and ofcourse it has to be said their distinct urge to always stir the pot. These females act so vindictive and manipulative always going behind eachothers backs and talking crap, putting hands on each other, and looking for ways to stir the pot. In deep thought one would say they give woman a bad name.

Don't be mistaken no home training would indicate an even worse idicite in public. For these woman they literally do not give a damn if their privates are on display, at the club in the house or in the living room of millions of veiwers. Their behavior is inapropreate at all times.

I have to be honest, I watch it. This is what sales. People love to be right in the middle of other people's drama. It's almost as if it is some what entertaining. For me I think it's funny. I find entertainment in it. At times I even feel that it is all made up.

The T.V. industray has built up an image for itself just as the music industray has. This is why Mr. Rodgers was replaced by Yogio, you can't honestly see Mr. Rodger and his little engine that could story on tradeing cards could you?

It's an image all about rateings which is Money.

Sexy girls having sex with each other and random men who also are fighting every chance they get sales. It appeals to a large audience. This means ratings are high and money will be made.

It is like this for most reality based T.V shows. For some, for instance Jhon and Kate Plus 8 they exploit each other to the ninth degree. It is hard to understand what they are thinking when it comes to exploiting their children. I used to watch it, but then it turned into something else. It hurt my heart to see the nations ratings go sky high when it came the scandel of infidelity on both Jhon and Kates part. That is an ugly and a hurt that I feel someone should not be subjecting to the nation.

Once again this is the reality that our world has come too. It sales. Money is the root to all evil, call me crazy but in my eyes this is purely for money. Entertainment always comes with a price.

My opinion on the issue of this shows staying on the air well eventually they will get boreing and the rateings will go down. They will be replaced by bigger better more drama in them reality shows. It’s a constant cycle. So sure they will go off the air but they will be replaced always leaving reality T.V. in some way.

Selena

SELENA

WOW I am not even sure where to start to describe this artist's appeal's and cross over ability’s.

Selena was so very talented, she was picked and manicured by her father . Imbedded deep in her heart she had a desire to perform.

Ironically she was English speaking by birth. She actually had to learn Spanish and the proper way to articulate the words and phrases. She struggled with this because she wanted to know the meaning of everything she was singing about.

Selena dreamed big. She set her sights high. With her families support and her fathers dream. Her band and her finally made it. All of his children were members of this band but his little girl Selena was the true artist.

Selena was beautiful. Her beauty was overwhelming, her long brown hair her cute little face with her beautiful brown eyes that were mesmerizing, this coupled with an amazing body and beautiful voice all played a part in her success.

She started off at local fairs and carnivals. Well actually she started in restaurants that her father owned or worked at. This gave her the experience that she was going to need to crossover.

She was only making Spanish songs, her first tour was in Mexico. She won the hearts of the Spanish speaking world. English speaking at heart she wanted to take over the world.

Selena started her crossover and was very successful. 1 of her biggest hits was Dreaming of you. In my opinion it still is. I would have to say one of my favorite of hers that is in Spanish is BITI BITI BUM BUM, I know that is not the name of the song but, I like it.

Another artist that had a great cross over appeal that come to my mind is Kelly Clarkston. She started her career on American Idol. She immediately went into a country career. Shortly after her first album Keri Underwood, took American Idol over with a whirl wind of talent. With her winning she also chose a country appeal. Soon after this Kelly Clarkston changed her style to a more Rock mode.

Her reasoning behind choosing a rock like style, who knows. Maybe it was because of Kerri Underwood or maybe it was Kelly had it in her all along what ever the reason, Kelly Clarkston did a good job of it this allowing herself to remain in the spotlight with Kerri Underwood.

I think that there is an element of beauty in the cross over world in music. It shows us the volume of success and talent this artist truly posses. It also enlighten us to the size of their pocket books. Cross overs I feel should get a little more respect than the rest. I mean at a concert they are asked to perform both styles that is extra work. They are now faced with the challenge of entertain both audiences, it’s almost as if they have to blen both techniques into one. That is remarkable, and shows I feel true talent.

        The West Side Connection and "Gangstas make the world go round."

When I was a little girl I grew up in foster care, exposing me to many different cultures and lifestyles. For the most part I was loved and well taken care of. There were few exceptions, but like the old saying goes, "one bad apple can spoil the bunch." These bad apples took me on a whirlwind of a downward spiral of emotion. In these tiffs of rebellion and depression I would place myself with people who felt just like me. The world owes us. Because of this crowd I listened to a lot of rap and music that all around belonged to a false image club.

Because of these life experiences I am talking about one of my favorite groups of my time. I can remember when the West Side Connection first came out. I was blown away by Ice Cube and Mac 10.

In the music video Gangsta make the world go round; Ice Cube Is sitting in his castle above the sky with his homies from the hood. Ice Cubes hand is over the planet leaving only a shadow for all the spectators to see. He is throwing up the “W” for west. It is as if he thinks that he is god.

He and his counterparts sit around as if they are knights sitting at the round table. They each take their turn with their raps that they have collaborated.

Ice Cube states, “No hesitation I could run a nation from incarceration, 30 years is what I’m facing.”

He makes it sound as if he is the all-powerful, even referring to himself as a black super hero.  This is fascinating to me. Ice Cube has never been a gangsta.

Their body movement throughout the music video is like they believe they are invincible. They rap about how they make the world go round and that if it wasn’t for gangstas Wall Street would fall. They call every other free person in this world that are not gangstas, “Fucken Guppies.”

They are very narcissistic. They feel that gangstas conger all. No man is smarter than they are.

I feel that this particular group is very artistic. They are truly great actors. I still have to admit I like the group. I can see where they are coming from. It’s like a dog eat dog world, they feel that they have to do what they have to do in order to survive. They also live life by the seat of their pants, always breaking the law and yet slipping through the cracks of justice. It’s a dangerous lifestyle that they are conveying. They are trying to put themselves out there like they simply cannot be beat.

The most striking lyric to me is,” They probably grow weed in the garden of Eden.” That is appalling and the record company should have excluded those lyrics from the song. I understand that some groups feel that they need to promote Weed, which is bad in itself. It is horrific to think about weed in the Garden of Eden.

                             Confounding the images.

I’d like to talk about Prince. He has been a sexual icon in societies eyes for generations. From the very first day that Prince stepped on stage he stunk of controversy. Whether they were scrutinizing his many hats or his explicit sexual content in his dancing. He was good at making love on stage. This confounded his audience into believing that everywoman was placed here for some sort of sexual gratification.

When the song Nikki came out, people around the world were astonished. It was argued that the lyrics were to vulgar for him to sing let alone preform. Yet Prince held back nothing as he made love to the microphone choosing the words to the song ever so carefully. I believe he made the lyric’s risky on purpose.

In the movie Purple Rain he confounded his audience even more. He presented himself as a young confused  artist who had nothing or no one to turn to. A lot of the music that was on that label lead people to believe he was confused about his sexuality. He went even further to dress in very femine clothing. It is no surprise that Prince has found lots of success.

Prince shocked the nation in the early 90’s when he announced that he was gay. It came as a shock to most. For me the song “ When Doves Cry,” made perfect sense. Suddenly it all made sense to me.

There are many artist that confound their audience. These artist consist of Jeffery Star, Katy Perry, Lady Gaga and even George Michael. These artist are guilty of trying to confuse the audience into believing they are one gender or the other. I understand their reasoning.

There are artist’s that work very hard to confound their audience’s, into believing that living as a thug or gangster is the thing to do. Such artist like 50 cent write raps everyday with lyric’s suggesting that life is better as a law breaking drug dealing thug. They graphically describe killing people, raping woman, saleing drugs, and having no regard for the laws that are placed in front of us. It’s these artist’s who benefit from the nation falling into their fantasy, spending large amounts money to satisfy their need. I feel that as a nation we need to stand up and tell someone. This needs to be addressed.

I further feel that you are only an artist when you describe things that you have actually experienced. The music that is made with the sole intention of making money is not music at all, it is more like fraud.

Though artist’s such as Prince were confounding all the way around as far as image is concerned, I have to hold an unspoken amount of respect for him, and the rest like him. They are fighting for a cause that is not harmful. They are inspiring and their music is touching. Unlike the other artist’s, who’s only concern is the dividend part of the deal. These are the artists who are truly confounding their audiences.

The girls next door.

I was asked to write about my feelings on any artist that came to mind from any genre, that I felt had a negative description through the press.

Lindsey Lohan. I can not believe the way that the press exploits her bad decisions in life. I have to say however that her indiscretions are really not so minor.
Most recently in the press Was the jewelry heist. They made her out to look like an evil monster who stole a $2,500 necklace. I have to ad mitt the circumstances were very odd. When you take in the fact the her estate could have purchased the entire store, it does seem very stupid to have or buy are what ever the circumstances were in that situation.
The press exploits the artist in their every move, not just musicians either. They go after the stars as well. I'm just take a look at Sandra Bullock, that poor girl. As if Jesse James did not hurt her enough now the tabloids have to tell everyone everything. It's just not right.
I always like they way they talk up the teen favorites, for instance Miylie Cryus, better known as Hanna Montana. They way the press talks about her you would think she was some kind of teen hero and in reality her behavior has been just as sticky as some of the others I have mentioned.
What I am trying to say is that it really doesn't matter how the press describes Artists or Stars the results can be negative.
I feel that instead of trying to portray people that the press should just state the facts, leave out emotion or their bias opinion. The truth is the truth if they cut out all the bull then they will have not portrayed anyone in any way they would just be simply stating the facts. That's safe and honest. If it were more like that at the end of the day the person the press was talking about could only blame themselves.
I'm sure if I did this one correct but to me it just seems crazy to rewrite  lies or negative words about anyone person. It felt better touching basis with it and explaining how I feel about it.

Every artist on the face of this planet is subject to random verbal bashing. Do I agree with it? No. That is just the way it is. I mean expression is a form of art right? Well isn't there constitutional laws protecting the right to art, sure, but the same location of those laws is also the location for the laws protecting the press. Really you can not win for losing. This is life the way that it is and I presume the way it will remain. :)

Warning lables....

    Should record companies be responsible for putting parental advisories on the music they distribute?

Well, on that question yes. Yes I feel that record companies should use parental advisories on the music they distribute. I feel that for the parents out there that take accountability for being parents, have the right to be informed of what their son or daughter may be listening to, therefore enabling them to make decisions as to what type of music is appropriate for their age groups.

That being said, it is my personal opinon that these advisories are not as effective as the public would like to believe. Meaning; If little Timmy got his grandma to take him to Best Buy to purchase a Cd that is explicit and the Cd has an advisory, chances are Grandma will not let little Timmy buy that Cd. Timmy goes home, jumps on the web and downloads the CD. Now little Timmy is listening to that very music grandma did not approve of, despite the advisory.

I feel that record companies do not take little Timmy into consideration. Matter of fact I feel they only care about little Timmy's money. Rightfully so, they are in the business to make money. Nobody said they had to be morally correct. Usually people who like to make money, also like to keep their money. I feel they use the advisories to thwart any legal issues that may arise. It is a known fact that sense  music has evolved we as parents have tried to blame our children's behavior on music. I think it's brilliant to put that advisory on the CD, from a legal standpoint. Their defense is simply " We told you that you were taking piousness fruit from the tree. You chose to take it anyway." Despite the nature or content of the Cd we warned you, that it is not suitable for children.

I really do not care for music that has explicit content. I would like it if my children did not listen to that kind of music either, however I can only really control what I am listening to. I feel that parents as a whole need to stand up and address the underlining issues that their children are having. This is were bad behavior is derived from. Not someones right to free speech. If Parents would stand together as a whole and stop looking for reasons as to why , and deal with the issues at hand that the violence in our young society will decrease.

I agree with Rosen, music is an outlet from the soul to the guitar, the mic, the piano, the violin, the flute etc.... It is an expressive tool. Everyone has the right to that.

Music doesn't make anybody do anything that they don't want to. I asked my mom how she felt about that. She told me back in the 70's when pot, was the thing to do, that her and her friends would be smoking and thought it was cool to listen to Pink Floyd's Dark Side of The Moon. She preceded to tell me that this music set the tempo. I laughed, and said,"Mom Pink Floyd didn't tell you to smoke the joint. The joint told you to listen to Pink Floyd." She began laughing and said," well I guess your right. The music I thought was just cooler to listen to stoned." Note my Mom does not smoke marijuana, today.

How do you feel about music and it's ability to make us do something?

Influenced or not?

Well, I have to say that my own beliefs on this subject are contradicting.....
I believe that every person has the ability to control themselves. I believe that when someone falls off of the deep end, that they meant to do exactly that. I have used in some instances excuses of, I" I couldn't help it, all I saw was red" or " What did she expect after pushing me like that? " I have to admit however that my exact thought at the moment of violence were thought out and well calculated. Meaning I knew what I was doing and even more so I knew it was wrong.

Do I agree with music that contains vulgar or violent lyrics? No I do not, however that just does not give me the right to judge people that do.

I have raised my children correctly with great moral instinct. I know they know the difference between right and wrong.

If my son were to go out tomorrow and murder someone I could not stand by him and agree that because he listens to Tech Nine, Ice Cube, 2-PAC, Easy E and other artists that have explicit lyrics, he murdered.

When we are talking about children we have to remember that they are impressionable, this is where I contradict.  When they are listening to music with violence for lyrics then they are lead to believe that this behavior is not only acceptable but also rewarding. They are drawn into this fantasy that living as a gangsta is the thing to do.

I believe that this all comes down to moral value. If you are a person woman, man or child with morals you will not lead your life in that fashion. 

Bloom.

"It is their passion; nothing else excites them as it does; they cannot take seriously anything alien to music."
 Cited from Allan Bloom
 I truly do believe that this is a huge generalization. I feel that Bloom draws his conclusion from bias experiences with the age group he describes. I feel that he puts to much on his examples. I love Music, truly. While attending church I was not dying to be plugged back into my music. Rather I would listen to the sermon and enjoy the Gospel music.

I can however see where he is coming from. I look at the T.V. I see Hanna Montana, High School Musical, Fame, Rent. In Instances such as these, I can see his thought process of,
"It is their passion; nothing else excites them as it does; they cannot take seriously anything alien to music."
I can see how young adults and children can loose their selves in music, wheter it be a comfort zone, a way to release anger or hurt, a motivator. I just can't see it taken to the degree he is describing unless, they are pursuing a serious career in the music industry. So I believe that one can detach themselves at anytime from their passion, without losing their passion for that thing.

I have a friend. Her name  is Maria. She owns her own hair salon. It's called Team Works. It is here in California City Ca. I really like Maria she has a way with people. She is amazing when it comes to helping people feel good about themselves. She is always willing to go the extra mile in helping create what ever her client feels is beautiful. She does really nice things for her clients as well. I always she her studying on new hair styles and techniques. I watch her do things within the community that involve things like free hair cuts, or makeovers for those who feel they need it. Well, one day while sitting in her chair letting her rock on my hair. I asked her," Maria this must be your passion?" She kinda giggled, and said," yeah it would look like that, but my passion is the lord." That sounds kinda weird huh. I just said," cool ,"and kept the conversation going. Later that night our conversation was replaying in my head. I was touched when It dawned on me what she was saying. Her love for the Lord, her passion for the Lord, is what drove her to give back. So while people can see only what she is doing or may be involved in they can not see the underlining reason.

I do agree with Blooms discussion on education. I do believe it refines us as humans and people.  I have  to say that i do appreciate some of his other notions as well. I like his view on Music and the soul. I tend to agree that a person who has music in their  lives are Happier.

Music makes me feel happy. I like it, I would rather live with than without, But I could. At that point I'D JUST SING TO MYSELF :)

Communication

How do I communicate with my parents? How do I communicate without words?
Well my Mom and I have a very weird relationship. For 16 years or so there was no communication to speak of.  I used to dream of the way our conversations would go. Honey I love you so much etc.... Somewhere in all of my dreaming, it turned to a deep desire to want to know.
    One day, there she was. I reached out to her in more ways than one. I followed her around like a puppy. I tried to do the things she did, in vain...........
   Today my mother and I communicate on many different levels. We can sit down at the crack of dawn sipping on coffee till noon. Laughing about funny times spent went friends and loved ones. Coming to tears dealing with wreckage of the past. Bonding, in extremes. We fight. Screaming matches rather. I ask her things, things that cut deep but I believe I deserve an answer. I ask her what she was like all those years I was in foster care. I tell her I love her and I would have loved her no matter what. Most of all I ask her about my father.. I talk to him few and far between. I try to talk to him. Every time I call he is so drunk I can't understand him. He is bitter and very hateful, that's OK.. I love him anyway. I just don't have to deal with it, and that's OK too.
    I can look at my Mom, better Known as "The Look", and undoubtedly she will know exactly what I'm saying. We communicate without saying words all the time. When my great grandmother Lightfoot passed, may she rest in peace, everyone was so distraught. I was at a loss for words. In the pinnacle of my sorrow my grandmother approched me, she stared deep into my soul, and without uttering a word, she placed her hand on my shoulder. With that one swoop of her hand, I felt a ton of bricks being lifted off of my chest. It was as if she told me "Kellee it's OK, Mamy Lightfoot is in a better place, in fact she is looking down wondering why you are crying." Suddenly I was overwhelmed with emotion. I laughed. I cried. I felt relieved.

I believe that communication with out words is exhilarating. It is without saying the best euphoria  for me. Kinda like making love. You say nothing,"well,:)" gazing into your partners eyes, you develop butterflies. The longer you look the more in love you know you are. We are saying so many things..... Never uttering a word. I love it...

On the highest mountain top in China looking down on the great wall, a village of monks dwell. The live months, even years taking in all nature and this world have to offer. People travel from near and far to embrace the life of the monks.. Ironically very rarely do these encounters involve words. It is truly one of Gods Great Gifts...

I am a little scared

This is all new to me. I find it kinda weird. I am really self consious.
Someone, one of my peers asked me to go into depth with my writeing.
I like all kinds of different genra's of music, they only excuse I have for that is the many differant cultures and life stlyes that I was exposed to in foster care.
I learened to love Smokey Robinson and Peaches and Herb, whikle living with Frances Mydell. She was African American. We would stay up all night playing spades and listeing to Etta James. Soul hits me hard. It is as if while it's playing it is connected to me in my blood moveing through me, allowing me to feel it's every emotion. I felt as if they were singing to me, allowing me to feel their sorrow. This was great escape for me if I was dealing with others emotions then I did not have to deal with mine.
Gosphel hits my heart as well. I love to praise the lord.  Through trying times I could always turn to This little light of mine. It makes my soul smile.
A student asked me to explain myself, I'm trying. This is a little difficult for me, I didn't think that when I chose Mrs. Gross for an instructor that I would be reliveing all of this memorys. Music has played such an influence in my healing process it is unbeliveable.
I have been through alot and as I said before music is the only way I learend to cope. I am scared of this class. I can't spell and I'm a little intemidated by everyone else that does know how. I will be writeing another blog soon for this week. I will try my hardest to go into depth for you guys Ok. Well I'm late for AJ 205 gotta go Kellee

A list of Music? Where to begin?

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Where to start? I took a survey. I have lots of differant music. Ranging from blues,soul,contry to rap,hip-hop and Jewel.
I have to admitt I have had a very strong tie to all kinds of music my whole life. I grew up in foster care and really had no one to turn to, therefore I turned to music. It was the one thing that was always consistant in my life. I could count on the fact that when I put in Sir Mix Alot the lyrcs to " babay got back" hadn't changed.
I love my music.
Thinking back on time I can honestly say that my genre' s didn't change the just grew.
I can remember the first time tht I listen to Janis " Me and Bobby Mgee" I felt like I was being introduced to music all over again. It was as if the doors of heaven openede and this heavenly noise fell out. LOL
I LOVE MUSIC.
I would always take chior. I loved the feeling of standing infront of the graqnd pianio. i could feel the vibrations moving through the floor coupled with the auditoy. I loved it. I felt like everyone could understand what I was going therough if I just picked the right song. It makes no sense, but it was eaiser for me.
I'm not sure you understand I love Music.

Has music influenced me?

I love music. So much that some beg me to stop. I really love to sing. Music has deafantley changed me.
When I was young dealing with som emotional turmoil, we all have that at a young age, there was nothing that peaches and herb couldn't fix. I grew listening to oldies but goodies. It is true I am an 80's baby. I give much love and respect to, Madonna, Cindy lauper, Stevie Nicks.etc.... I have to admitt that my heart is more found of blues. Music when I grew up had meaning. You could feel it before the artist even began to sing.
I have many veiws on todays music. I feel like it is sort of a rat race to who can make the most money. Before people would sing about thingsw tha had meaning. now a days we have to fight through stations to hear more than just " black and Yellow, Black and Yellow." I mean really.
Don't get me wrong I like some rap. For the most part however I feel that they just like to listen to themselevs. SORRY...
Music and my love for music has changed my veiws on the world. I believe music is a beautiful noise. I like to listen to music from other countries. I like to closer my eyes and fall in tune with the instruments, I swear some times it feels as though I can see right into their hearts.
I appreciate music more and more the older I become. I'm sure music will continue to confert me, lift me up, make me joyiuos and teach me in my life