This is all new to me. I find it kinda weird. I am really self consious.
Someone, one of my peers asked me to go into depth with my writeing.
I like all kinds of different genra's of music, they only excuse I have for that is the many differant cultures and life stlyes that I was exposed to in foster care.
I learened to love Smokey Robinson and Peaches and Herb, whikle living with Frances Mydell. She was African American. We would stay up all night playing spades and listeing to Etta James. Soul hits me hard. It is as if while it's playing it is connected to me in my blood moveing through me, allowing me to feel it's every emotion. I felt as if they were singing to me, allowing me to feel their sorrow. This was great escape for me if I was dealing with others emotions then I did not have to deal with mine.
Gosphel hits my heart as well. I love to praise the lord. Through trying times I could always turn to This little light of mine. It makes my soul smile.
A student asked me to explain myself, I'm trying. This is a little difficult for me, I didn't think that when I chose Mrs. Gross for an instructor that I would be reliveing all of this memorys. Music has played such an influence in my healing process it is unbeliveable.
I have been through alot and as I said before music is the only way I learend to cope. I am scared of this class. I can't spell and I'm a little intemidated by everyone else that does know how. I will be writeing another blog soon for this week. I will try my hardest to go into depth for you guys Ok. Well I'm late for AJ 205 gotta go Kellee
Hi how are you? I cannot compare my hardships with yours but I am sure that everything you have gone through has only prepared you for anything life throws at you. I can tell that you come from a special place and that music has been a positive outlet for you in your troubling times. I did a surrogacy last year meaning I carried a baby for someone else who could carry kids on their own. I did this to give someone their live baby. They knew that adoption was an option but wanted another way. Don't be scared of this class. I know where you are coming from on that because our first essay had to be about ourselves. This opens up a window of old memories that are hard to live through again but sometimes just writing what is in your heart can also be healing. It can help you take out any emotions that you can't just say to anyone because of the fear of being judged. My outlet was writing. I wrote poems or songs when times got hard. I am happy to say that I have not actually had to write anything recently because I have had some good luck this year. I finally bought my first home. This is something that I have been working on for two years and had nothing but disappointment and I almost gave up like at least 8 times. But I did it! And now I feel that I can do anything if I just keep pushing and not give up. You can also do this! Just believe in yourself and put faith in yourself.
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